Last night whilst in the shower I had a lightbulb moment.
I'll explain in a minute.
Recently I've started getting an itch to start working on music properly again, and I'd actually wanted to write a blog explaining why I stopped in the first place, but spare time being so rare for me at the moment, I haven't had a chance to yet - but I will.
Just recently my Drewvis facebook page has been receiving a number of new views and likes (no idea why!) and it's actually been niggling away in my head and finally made me want to actually finish the new album I wrote over a year ago.
A recent visit from my good friends Natalie Wouldn't from Seattle has also ignited something in me again (they always seem to do that!) and so not only am I now gearing up to get the new album finished, there's also serious talk of starting a new band with some of the closer members of Second Time Lucky.
This is a big thing.
For all of us.
It will make more sense to anyone else out there when I actually get around to writing my 'why I fell out of love with music' blog post soon.
But trust me, it's a big step, and a big deal.
So, going back to my lightbulb moment in the shower last night...
When I was at BIMM (Brighton Institute of Modern Music) doing my songwriting degree back in 2009 I received some feedback and suggestions about one of my songs (Short Measures) which at the time made no sense to me at all, I was happy with how it sounded and it's structure etc. and that was how it should be. But the feedback has always stayed in my head, and I've always tried to understand how it could possibly be of any use. Seven years later... it was last night in the shower that it finally made sense to me... I will explain what the heck I'm yabbering on about, but not now.
You'll have to wait until you hear the new version of it! ;)
And just on the off chance you read this blog and haven't heard my music... here's the last album:
Tuesday, June 14, 2016
The one where I attempt profundity but fail...
Being upset by friends is something that we all probably go through in our lives.
By the time you get to my age (mid thirties if you must know!) most people have seen friends come and go and siphoned out the ones that are flakey, fakey, or emotionally draining and have a nice solid collection of close, reliable, loving people that you could trust with your life, and you would do anything for.
More like family.
Families have ups and downs too though.
So what happens when your "family" - or a few of them in this case - upset you and they don't even realise?
That's the situation I've been in recently, and I've dealt with it the way I tend to deal with things like this - I've distanced myself from the situation and those who have hurt me.
It's a natural thing to do, and I'm particularly good at it unfortunately.
The problem with dealing with it in this way (and I think it's because I've changed a lot as a person over the last few years) is that I'm then left with the burden of conscience. Thinking and thinking and dwelling on the situation.
(That's not healthy by the way.)
But more annoyingly, in the end, I always seem to be the bigger person and brush it aside and just get on with it, reconciling differences (where differences are reconcilable) in my head and putting it down to just being a nice guy.
Being a nice guy never got me anything until later in life*, so there is some truth in the saying 'nice guys finish last' and the thing that is eating me up right now is that when I see the people that hurt me, I'll just do what I always do and act like nothing's happened because they're my "family" and it's my job to protect them from being hurt or upset themselves.
On a side note, I must add that I have the best friends I could have ever wished for in my life. Nobody's perfect - especially me.
* I have to say, the rewards of being a nice guy really are worth the wait!
By the time you get to my age (mid thirties if you must know!) most people have seen friends come and go and siphoned out the ones that are flakey, fakey, or emotionally draining and have a nice solid collection of close, reliable, loving people that you could trust with your life, and you would do anything for.
More like family.
Families have ups and downs too though.
So what happens when your "family" - or a few of them in this case - upset you and they don't even realise?
That's the situation I've been in recently, and I've dealt with it the way I tend to deal with things like this - I've distanced myself from the situation and those who have hurt me.
It's a natural thing to do, and I'm particularly good at it unfortunately.
The problem with dealing with it in this way (and I think it's because I've changed a lot as a person over the last few years) is that I'm then left with the burden of conscience. Thinking and thinking and dwelling on the situation.
(That's not healthy by the way.)
But more annoyingly, in the end, I always seem to be the bigger person and brush it aside and just get on with it, reconciling differences (where differences are reconcilable) in my head and putting it down to just being a nice guy.
Being a nice guy never got me anything until later in life*, so there is some truth in the saying 'nice guys finish last' and the thing that is eating me up right now is that when I see the people that hurt me, I'll just do what I always do and act like nothing's happened because they're my "family" and it's my job to protect them from being hurt or upset themselves.
On a side note, I must add that I have the best friends I could have ever wished for in my life. Nobody's perfect - especially me.
* I have to say, the rewards of being a nice guy really are worth the wait!
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